Monday, December 17, 2012

Life is beautiful!

Naked baby in a Santa hat- you're welcome.
Ahh....  life.  It is pretty great right now.  I was so worried about having another baby.  I was not looking forward to it, and I would have been so happy to just stick with the 3 we already had.  But the second little Clara was born, she had my entire heart.  I love her!  She is the most amazing little thing, I can't seem to get enough. 

She makes me want to have another.  (It won't happen, but it does make me want it).

Christmas is wonderful.  A few things got pared down- no outside lights this year, and it is looking more and more like the Christmas cards just aren't going to happen.  But we decorated the house, my shopping is practically done, and we've even baked a few treats. 

Homeschool was great today.  Last week not so much, and I had a looooong talk with Kydon about if we should send them back to school.  We decided to stick it out at least for the rest of the year, but boy-oh-boy, I would not have been that heartbroken to send them back last week!  But today was fantastic, so hopefully there will be more of those. 

My baby is big, and fat.  She is one month old, and is in 6 month clothing.  She is super heavy, but I don't mind a bit.  She loves the sling, and I love to sling her.  She sleeps all day long, and cries from 9pm till 12am.  But after her crying and cluster feeding, she sleeps well- the past three nights she has slept either 5 or 6 hours after midnight.  She loves her Daddy more than anyone, and also likes to scratch her face (FYI, 6 month clothing doesn't have those handy hand covers like newborn clothing does).  And although it is a mere 1 inch long, she has all 5 of the rest of us wrapped around her tiny pinkie. 

I am feeling better and better every day.  I feel like cooking and cleaning again, I can bend and reach and sit and function without pain!  I still have some lingering issues that I am working through, but overall things are getting back to where they should be.  AND, thanks to my cleaning, the kids have a whole new wardrobe since I cleaned out a linen closet and figured out that when I told Aidan to put away a basket of laundry, he thought I meant "shove it all behind the towels in the closet"! 

Who knows how long it will be before the next crisis, so I'm just going to sit back and enjoy feeling good.

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

She's Here!

In just a little under 8 hours, I went from this:
(Sorry for the graphic image, but it is just too unbelievable not to share)

 To this:
 Our littlest pumpkin was born!  And she is perfect in every way!  Clara Colleen was 9 lbs, 14 oz, and 21.25 inches long.
 I was very anxious about the delivery, and it went better than I expected.  I went to the hospital at 6:30 to be induced, the doctor broke my water around 8:30.  I got the epidural not long after... but it didn't work right away.  One hour of painful contractions was enough to make me really appreciate the doctor coming back and giving me another bolus, which kicked in very quickly and I was pain free after that.  Despite some worrisome happenings (meconium in the water, cord around the neck, trying to vacuum her out), everything went very quickly and she was born just a little after two! 

We have 3 cute kids who are over the moon with their little sister.  Abby is our little mama, and the primary fashion coordinator, making sure that Clara is held, burped, talked to, loved, and dressed super cute every day.  Jack loves to hold her and whisper lullabies in her ear.  Aidan was the first to change a diaper (voluntarily, I might add), and he told me yesterday "Mom, you just can't say no to a newborn baby"!

She has fat rolls everywhere, cute chubby cheeks, and a very calm and sweet nature.  She sleeps all day and wakes up around 2am, just to keep us humble!  Having a new baby is pretty magical, and we couldn't be happier with our new little addition!

Monday, October 29, 2012

Last the best of all the game!

When I was little, we would often chant the phrase "first the worst, second the same, last the best of all the game!"
Lately I find myself chanting that phrase several times a week!  My first trimester was pretty miserable, my second was even worse, but now that I am in the final weeks, I am finally feeling good!  Well, pregnant good anyway! 
After months of my doctors being very concerned and telling me over and over to prepare for an early birth, I have stabilized quite a bit.  The fibroids have stopped growing, my pain is minimal, and I actually have energy and I can walk and move (things I really couldn't do a few months ago).  I am officially 37 weeks, so only 3 more to go!  And if she starts to come, they will just let her, so we are in the safe zone as far as the birth goes!
 Sure, I am as big as a house, but I'm just happy to not have all the pain I was having!  The other day I couldn't find my keys and had to walk the boys the 4 blocks to the school for their speech therapy.  We walked there, walked home, I found my keys, and we went to a museum homeschool day where we walked around a lot more.  A few weeks ago I would not have been able to do any of that, so despite my size, and the fact that I am too big for most of my *maternity* clothes (sob), I am feeling really good!
 My sweet sisters and mom threw me a baby shower- yay for cute baby girl things!  Of course I didn't get great pictures, but I was too busy enjoying myself!
 My sister Lisa made this cute diaper cake- does this mean the baby won't come out potty trained???  Oh no!!

 My mom made this quilt- I love it!  Melinda also made me a super soft blanket- I need to post a picture, because it is awesome.

The funniest story of the day is that our neighborhood was having a garage sale the day of the shower.  Abby went out early to check out a few of the sales, and she came home with something wrapped in a blanket.  Her eyes were all lit up and she was so excited- she told me she found the perfect thing that I had wanted for a long, long time and she wanted to give it to me at the baby shower.

She was so cute- she could barely contain her joy and excitement!  She kept saying "I just want to tell you what it is- you are going to love it so much"!  Of course, I couldn't make her wait any longer than I had to, so we opened that one first....
And now we have Big Mouth Billy Bass to decorate the nursery and sing little Clara to sleep!  The entire room was cracking up when I opened this- yep, just what I always wanted, all right!  I love my little girl!

Thursday, October 25, 2012

Costume Preview

We went to a city Halloween festival this year- it gave us a good chance to try out our costumes!  Because the only thing better than getting 3 cute kids ready and dressed in costumes once is doing it twice! 
 Jack is an Auburn football player.  he was super excited to get this helmet with a chin strap, and he wears it non-stop- even to bed one night!
 Aidan is still loving his Union army soldier outfit, so he wore that again.  This year he added a real Union canteen, thanks to a Grandma who knows to get the authentic stuff!
Abby styled herself as a rock star- I think she did a pretty good job!  Really I think the whole outfit was just an excuse to be able to wear those high heels outside of the house!  What a cute girl!

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Fun at the Farm!

After a rained-out attempt and trying to accommodate a million different schedules, we finally made it to the pumpkin farm with our cousins (and a couple of neighbors, of course).  It was a beautiful day, and the kids all had a great time!
 We just met these two neighbors a few months ago- they have an 8 year old boy and a 7 year old girl, and our kids quickly became inseperable!  They have so much fun together!
 Here are all the "pumpkins" in the patch!  It is pretty cool to see all these gigantic pumpkins, but I'm never tempted to take them home!
 And the obligatory hay ride.  It was a little bumpy for my giant belly, but I made it through anyway!
 The boys all enjoyed being "cowboys" which meant they picked up straw and stuck it in their mouths. 
 And of course we all came home with pumpkins!  I love having pumpkins at the house all fall- for some reason they make me so happy!
A shot of more of the group- I always feel like I should have taken more pictures!

Thursday, October 11, 2012

Too Much Energy!

Our morning started today at 5:30 am.  That actually used to be pretty normal for us, but for the past several months they have all been sleeping until 6:30 or 7, and Jack and Aidan will sometimes sleep even a bit longer.  I very quickly got used to the later sleep time! 

At 5:30 Jack woke up, and Abby was soon to follow, and even Aidan made his appearance not long after.  Once they are awake, there is no turning back, despite how much Mommy attempts to pull the covers over her head and ignore the world for a few more minutes. 

Amazingly, this morning they decided to cooperate and play rather than argue and fight.  So far they have created an obstacle course, jumped on the trampoline, chased a rabbit out of the yard, played a game with very complicated rules that I won't even attempt to reconstruct but which did result in a lot of (happy) noise and a few bangs from the upstairs bedrooms, made a playhouse for their stuffed pets, and now they are in the basement doing who knows what.

Oh, did I mention it is now 7:30 am? 

If only I could harness that energy and use it for good....

Thursday, October 4, 2012

The Only Thing I Kept

Thinking we were done with babies, I gave away all of our baby things, and all of our kid things as they outgrew them.  I am not one to keep things around, and it never made sense to have a bunch of baby stuff laying around.  There was one thing, however, that I just couldn't get rid of- my baby sling.

 It takes up almost zero space, and I just loved it so much I couldn't part with it.  So, luckily I still have that around for this next one.  The number one question I get lately is if I am buying things for the baby, and the answer is "no".  I have collected a few things, but really I'm not buying things, and I'm not setting up a nursery, and I really don't feel like we need anything.
 2 women from church gave me a bag of clothing, so I have a bin of clothes and onesies all washed and sorted and set to go.  I consider the "bag sleepers" essential, so I would have bought some, but one of the bags contained several baby bag sleepers- all set!  Consider clothing checked off!
 If you've read this blog for any amount of time, you know I love to quilt.  I started this quilt about 7 or 8 years ago, and just worked on it here and there.  I just was in love with the pattern and colors, and just made it for no reason.  I finally finished it a year or so ago, and it has just been sitting in a closet- too small to use, and too loved to give away.
 Well, it now has the perfect purpose- a baby quilt for my little one.  Consider the quilt checked off!
 I haven't been in any mood to craft or sew since I've been pregnant, and I really didn't have any plans to make anything at all.  But Kydon needed a baby gift for someone at work, so I made a receiving blanket with a matching burp cloth.  I was in the store, buying the fabric, and felt super guilty that I was making something for someone else's baby and not my own, so I bought this pink flannel and made one for each of us.  Blanket, burp cloths, and something I made- triple check off!
Kydon's sister generously gave us this gorgeous blessing dress- it was exactly what I would have chosen if I had shopped for it myself, and I am in love with it.  I thought it would be super cute with a bonnet, but didn't feel like making one.  Luckily I thought of Etsy, and now an adorable lace bonnet is on the way (the bonnet is one of the very few things I have purchased for this little one).  Check off the blessing outfit!

We've also been given a carseat and a pack and play, so those are checked off as well.

I told Kydon of my intentions to not buy anything, and he was mostly supportive.  He did request a bouncy seat, which I also thought was a good idea, and I was able to score one at the thrift store for $6!  I love a good bargain!  I took it home and gave it a scrubbing, so it is all set to go.

Eventually we will need a crib... a neighbor gave me a mattress, so that is set, and we will just get the crib when we need it.  I have no plans to buy or use a stroller- I think the sling will do just fine.

There was only one more essential item that I have been searching for- it had to be just right....
A new purse for me, of course!  Big enough to hold a few baby things (I will not be carrying a diaper bag), and still smallish and cute.  It was more difficult than I would have thought, but just this week I found the perfect one!  Now I have a new purse and baby prep is officially complete!

I plan to keep it pretty simple for this one, knowing that she will outgrow things every few months!  I also just don't want to spend a lot knowing it is *for sure* our last one!  I hope I'm not crazy, thinking I just don't need anything, but I feel such a calm and peace thinking that we can just get by without a lot of things.  What do you think?  Am I crazy or just keeping it simple??  Is there anything my "essentials"  list is missing?

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Fall Festival Time!

This past weekend we started our fall festivities at the Atlanta History Center- we joined a few months ago and have really enjoyed the museum and all of the homeschool days and special events they have!

Abby self styled her hair- two little braids, I thought it turned out so cute!  She also self-styled that one teeny bang with the help of some scissors.  I was a little mad until I saw how cute she was- the little wisp of bang really does look cute, so how can you be mad at that?

 They had a ton of crafts.  Amazingly, Abby was the only one interested.  She made some cute little animal finger puppets.  Jack and Aidan preferred to run and run up and down the amphitheater-type steps.
 They had a petting zoo, which everyone complained about before we got there, and then no one wanted to leave.  They loved it!
 Jack attached himself to this little chicken.  He would not let go.  I think he held it for almost an hour- I would go take pictures of the other kids, and when I came to check on him he would still be holding this little guy.
 I'm sure it's no coincidence that just that morning he had been begging once again for a pet.  He held onto this guy all morning, and several times when we were out doing other things he would run back for one more hold!  Sorry, J- no chickens at the house.
 Abby and Aidan both loved this sweet rabbit- "Mom, it is so SOFT!  You won't believe it!  Come feel how SOFT it is!"
 And... Jack with the chicken.  His new best friend.
Abby held one too, but didn't get quite so attached.  They had all kinds of activities and demonstrations, like corn husk dolls and sachets and candle dipping, blacksmiths, etc.  It was so much fun for the kids, and Kydon and I enjoyed it as well. 

The weather is starting to cool off, and it was really fun to enjoy the activity before rushing off to the rest of our day, which included 2 birthday parties, a soccer game, and a family dinner.  I can only imagine how busy we will be as they get even older!

Monday, September 17, 2012

The Real Life Update

Once upon a time I would blog just about every single day!  Now it looks like I am averaging once a month.  Mostly this is because I am hesitant to blog about the two things that consume my life, so I end up not blogging at all. 

I hesitate to blog about my pregnancy because I don't really think people want to hear about it all that much.  Especially with my history of infertility, I get really turned off when people go on and on about pregnancy and childbirth, and yes, that applies to myself as well.  If *I* don't want to hear about it, I can only assume that other people don't either!  I also hesitate to blog too much about homeschool.  I don't want to be one of those "in your face" homeschool people who can't shut up about it, but the reality is that I can't think about much else.  So, if I don't want to blog about pregnancy or homeschool, there really isn't much else for me to write, so I just stay away!  It dawned on me last night that I should just write about it anyway, and those who aren't interested can read the other 2 or 3 blogs that are out there!  I mean, it isn't like everyone was fascinated by my 33,000 posts about potty training either, but that never stopped me! 

So, here is the Real Life update on what is keeping me busy lately!

I am not really enjoying pregnancy.   There, I said it.  To be honest, I pretty much hate it.  I would adopt again in less than a second if I had to choose.  And to be even more honest, I still don't really relish the idea of adding another baby to our household.  I sometimes feel guilty that after years of wishing and hoping for pregnancy I'm not just happy and grateful for the experience, but there it is.  Once I got over the several months of nausea and sickness, I had one really great week.  After that week it has been not so great.  I had all sorts of plans for when I got feeling better- freezer meals, home improvement, cleaning and crafting. 

What I didn't plan on was the complications that would come from the fibroids.  Apparently they have what my doctors call "flare ups".  For me it means that I will have 2-3 days of feeling what I call "normal pregnant"- tired, uncomfortable, a few aches and pains, but overall okay and I can get things accomplished.  Those few days will be followed by several days of "flare up" when I have severe pain, nausea, and am pretty much confined to the couch with a stack of pillows, a heating pad, and spend the day debating if I should take narcotics or not.  I really can't clean, I barely cook (if heating up frozen food and pulling yogurt and fruit out of the fridge counts as cooking), and leaving the house is a major chore.  My due date is mid November, and although I know having a new baby is a lot of work, I am just really looking forward to being able to function again, being able to walk without pain, being able to sit or lay down, being able to move and cook and clean and just function in my life again.

On the bright side, homeschool is (finally) going great.  There was a huge learning curve- a lot bigger than I had planned on.  These past two weeks I feel like we are at least starting to hit our stride- accomplishing our work and getting things done without trying to do too much and overwhelming and frustrating everyone.  I've figured out how to assign things, and the kids have figured out how to get their work done in a reasonable time frame.  I've been able to scale way back on days when we've needed breaks, and ramped it up on days that we could do more. 

We stay home a lot more than I would like- my vision of homeschool wasn't really for us to all just be at home all day every day, but due to the pregnancy factors, I really can't go to all the museums and field trips and adventures that I had originally dreamed of doing.  I know the kids get bored, and we end up watching more tv than I would ever have normally allowed, but I keep thinking it is a short time in the overall scheme of things.  Thankfully there have been some tender mercies, mostly in the form of meeting some new neighbors whose kids get along fantastically with ours, and they spend most afternoons waiting on pins and needles for them to finish homework so they can all play together.  I absolutely love the homeschooling, I think the kids mostly tolerate it.  Maybe they like it more than I realize, but they are pretty set on heading back to public school next year.  We'll see if that changes any over the course of the year.

Usually I can manage to have enough energy to keep everyone moving and grooving through the homeschool day, we do our projects, and I do a bit of dishes or laundry.  By the time the school day is done, I am wiped out and ready for a nap, so the kids entertain themselves for a bit until their friends come home from school.  Then Kydon comes home and we figure out what to eat, and the day is pretty much over.  Pretty fascinating stuff over here!

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

Homeschool Adventures

I have so many blog posts written in my head... but they never seem to make it to the computer!  We've started homeschool... now in the midst of our 3rd week.  I'm not going to lie- it has been a challenge!  After the first 3 days I was ready to sign them all up for public school and be done.  But, I just can't quit after 3 days, right??  So we took a day off, then kept on going.  After a lot of tweaking and adjusting and realizing I was making myself crazy, I threw out my schedule.  The daily schedule I had spend hours tweaking and perfecting.  It had us running a tight ship- start at 8, plenty of planned breaks, and done by 1:30.  It was scheduled every 15 min.

And it was driving me crazy.  And the kids.  After much frustration, I decided to focus more on HOME and less on SCHOOL.  At school, they keep those kinds of schedules.  Here at home, we don't have to.  If we are reading and want to finish the book, we don't have to stop just because the clock say 10:22.  I have my list of subjects and things we need to do each day, and we just work through them- not worrying so much about the clock.  It has been a lot better! 

One of the books we read over the last couple of weeks was called "Tonka the Cave Boy", about a prehistoric boy.  It was historical fiction based on artifacts they found in Russell Cave, AL.  The kids were completely fascinated by the book- loved every sentence, and talked about it non stop.  A quick google search showed it was less than 3 hours from our house, so our first school-inspired weekend field trip was born!

We started out by staying the night in Chattanooga, then heading up to Point Park (another Civil War battlefield park.  Apparently we can't get enough of them).  We forced helped the kids complete the Jr. Ranger program, which turned out to be very painful and annoying, but they each got a badge and wore it with pride.

After lunch, we made our way over to our real destination, Russell Cave.  It was really cool, mostly because we had read such a good book about it and the kids were really interested, talking about where Tonka might have done this or that.

 Once again, we forced encouraged them to complete the Jr. Ranger program (available at all National Parks).  This one was much easier, and they didn't have too much trouble getting it done.
 The actual cave itself was neat to see, but you couldn't go in very far- maybe only about 50 feet.  But they had some cool diorama-type people and fires and things to picture happening in the cave.  We started chatting with one of the park rangers, and told her of our enthusiasm for Tonka.  She of course knew all about him, but the book is out of print, so not many people read the book any more.  She took us under her wing, and let us experience the best part of our day- a weapons demonstration!
She taught us all how to throw a spear, use an atladl, and aim a blow gun.  The kids spent probably an hour or more perfecting their spear throwing!  Aidan even hit the deer!  Once they got some sharp sticks in their hands, it was all happiness and joy.  So different from the workbook and pencil reaction- go figure!

This type of thing is what makes homeschooling fun.  Reading some random book, getting an idea, and exploring it.  The fighting and struggling over "sit and do your work" is not as fun, but things are getting better on that front!  For now we will just focus on the positive!

Wednesday, July 18, 2012


Today I am relaxing on the couch while Aidan plays happily by himself. 

Today I am grateful for my mother-in-law who came to help with kids and household so that I could rest and relax. 

Today I sent Granny and Abigail and Jack to the last puppet show of the year, wishing very much that I could go with them, because the puppet shows are a delightful treasure and I love watching them every single summer.

Today Aidan once again declared his absolute hatred of all things puppet related and refused to go along, prefering to stay home and play quietly with his toys, happy to not be tortured at a puppet show.

Today I feel better than I have in a week and a half.  Right after I wrote the post declaring how well my pregnancy was going and how great I felt I had a few complications, several doctor visits, a few drugs that say "Do not take while pregnant", cancelling of work and activities, and I got to eat my words. 

Today Kydon comes home from his travel, and even though it isn't difficult to manage without him, it is so much nicer to have him around. 

Monday, July 16, 2012

The Boy Reached Nirvana

Last week we took Aidan on his dream vacation- to Gettysburg, PA.  He has been dreaming and planning and hoping for this this trip for years now, and I think it was every bit as wonderful as he had hoped.  He was grinning ear to ear the whole time, and his little blue eyes were lit with wonder at every single thing we saw. 

Our very, very first stop, of course, had to be.... the gift shop!  What else?  Jack and Aidan got muskets and Abigail got a mini harmonica necklace.  Kydon and I thought it might be nice to see some of the sights, go to the museum, then look around the gift shop at the end, but apparently we were wrong.  The gift shop must be visited within 30 seconds of arrival or chaos will (and did) ensue. 
AFTER the gift shop, we saw a lovely film and cyclorama and then walked the grounds a bit.  We were happy to be around when some union soldiers came through and let the kids dress up and did a musket loading demonstration.

Jack and Aidan were very serious about posing appropriately in front of this big mural. 
We then went driving around a bit, and ended up on little round top, where the muskets came in very handy. 
Abigail was still enduring at this point.  She isn't the fan of war that Aidan and Jack are, but she was enjoying the rocks and climbing on the mountain a bit.  Aidan and Jack were loving pretending to shoot all the confederates who were attacking their position.  Jack loved that several of the reenactors gave him warnings about carrying around a confederate flag.  (Just for the record, everyone who cares to pick a side around here is solidly on the union side, but at home, it is impossible to play Union vs. Confederate when you only have a US flag and no confederate flag).
From Little Round Top we made our way down to Devil's Den.  Aidan knew all about the confederates capturing this spot from the union and using this vantage point to make their attack.  Aidan got very, very excited when he found this little sharpshooter spot:
Apparently a very famous civil war picture was taken here.  Aidan recognied it immediately from his many books and studies, and he was really, really happy to get a picture in the exact same spot that he knew from all his books.
Jack and Aidan both loved the gigantic rocks on Devil's Den.  Abby was not so happy by this point, getting very tired of all the boring war monuments and cannons.  Luckily things are always better when you have some chips!

Monday, July 9, 2012

Half way there!

I am officially just over half way on my pregnancy!  And maybe more than half, since my doctor is pretty convinced I will deliver early (he is "hoping" I make it to 35 weeks or so). 

I gotta say, I am loving this part of pregnancy!  The 2nd trimester is every bit as fun as everyone said it would be!  The first few months were pretty miserable for me.  I was nauseous and sick 24/7.  Eating was miserable, and not eating was miserable.  I think now it was hormones (that lovely catch-all for female emotions), but my emotions were all over the place- mainly hovering around depression and despair and extreme crankiness. 

In contrast, once the nausea and sickness went away, my moods also stabilized (as much as they can when a female is pregnant, anyway), and I am feeling great!  Food is once again a source of happiness, and I love having a big apetite and being able to indulge it without worry!  My biggest craving is ice cream, and I make sure to indulge it often! 

The funnest part so far was finding out the gender!  Kydon and I went together to the ultrasound together.  We were so happy when we found out- it was exactly what we had been hoping and hoping for!  Then we came home to tell the kids......

 I filled up 3 green balloons with confetti and glitter, then we let the kids each pop a balloon to see what color it would be:
 It's a GIRL!
 One child was super, duper happy and excited!
Two children were super, duper sad- one wouldn't even look at the camera!  At one point, Aidan, almost in tears, said "Now we are having a GIRL baby, AND I'm covered in PINK glitter!"  Oh, adding insult to injury!  He was sad for a while, but I think they are getting used to the idea!

I also felt the baby move for the first time this past week.  It was amazing, and definately made me excited to have a little baby around!  So far everyone is growing and stable- the baby and the two gigantic fibroids that were supposed to be removed this summer before we got our surprise.  They can cause major problems, bursting or twisting or other unpleasant things, but so far they are just hanging out and growing and thriving with all the extra estrogen around.  I am only 21 weeks or so, but because of the fibroids I measure 35 weeks, so I am looking very very pregnant.  Another little perk of being so big (I kind of like being so big, can you tell?) is all the extra attention I get!  I never carry things or open my own doors anymore, and I always get the comfy chair to sit in!  I love the instant bond with other women and the stories and sympathy they share with me. 

Usually when people ask about me, the first question (if the kids aren't with me), is to ask if it is my first.  I love to respond by saying "Well, it is my first pregnancy, but my 4th child- we adopted 3 children, and after 15 years of infertility, we got this surprise!"  You would not believe how happy people get to hear about it- many times perfect strangers have burst into tears and hugged me because of their happiness!  I love having this instantanous connection to other women, and no shortage of things to talk about.  I am naturally rather shy and quiet, so it is nice to be able to have something so fun to talk about!

The kids continue to be excited and adorable about the whole thing- patting and rubbing my belly, kissing the baby goodnight, and saying very funny things about what life will be like once she is here.  I love that part of it most of all- to see their wonder and excitement about this process.  I'm starting to understand a little bit those who say they enjoy pregnancy- this part is definately enjoyable!